Monday, 12 September 2011

A Lover's Pain

When it never mattered to you how I felt,
Why does it matter now?
'Cos you never gave me a chance to make it better
Or to show you how...

You left and killed a part of me, with such ease
I'm still trying to put together the pieces you left of me
No matter where I go, where I stand or where I lay,
I'll never forget your sweet smile or when you giggled in the funniest way...

You were so crude, so cold, to leave me there in pain
You never thought of me, for you it was always your happiness, your gain
And when that so called joy came your way, you turned on your heel and left
Forgetting that to me you were the one, and that cos of you, I was off my feet, swept...

Now I keep thinking about going back to the start
Thinking about how to mend this broken heart
There seems to be no solution to end the sorrow I feel
Why are you bothered now? Didn't you get your fair share out of the deal?

When I wish to move on, the pain of your action kills that very feeling
And makes it so hard for me to trust the person I wish to let in,
I need some solace, my heart needs healing
Turning my back on you, ignoring you, leaving you at this crossroad by yourself, suddenly seems like sin...

I gave you my everything, gave you the best of the best
You were mine, we were happy, and I always thought that we'd be that way
The wound of my heart is bleeding non-stop, and soon the heartbeat will have nothing to say
What did I do wrong, and did I deserve to be put to this test....?

The scars of heartbreak though invisible are painful, maybe more than the tiny bruises you see
How I wish that things were different, and that you were still with me
Instead I'm here pining for your presence, comfort, love and laughter
Where I can't accept another one's presence, forget you, or leave you hanging after...

When it never mattered to you how I felt,
Why does it matter now?
'Cos you never gave me a chance to make it better
Or to show you how...
I've obsessed over you, cried over you, and realized that you're not coming back
And now I'm ready to get my life back on track
So now I don't your memories haunting me, or your presence to upset me,
I just need this time to move on, to better things, a new someone and this time to just be me.....